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have some shitty chaotic pride flags ^^

check out the rest of the flags on my profile since tumblr has a 10 image limit lol as well as the fixed versions of a few of these cuz I’m big dumb

stormie and I fucked yesterday. i haven’t been this sex high since alex. fingers crossed I manage the come down well.

fuck yesterday was so good.

yesterday I told him I had been thinking about moving to loveland or colorado springs. he told me I’m not allowed to go that far without him.

i dont ever want to let him go.

i need to find real clothes and my hair brush and go to class. the run about needs gas too. so I need to leave early enough to do that. i just wanna snuggle in my bed and think about stormie fucking me.

fuck it was so good.

tumblr the whole world has changed since I wrote last and its only been a little while.

moggy died.

stormie and I are back together? we haven’t dtr’d. but i feel confident in saying we are most certainly something now.

I started phlebotomy school.

moggy died.

which feels impossible. she was just here. She died last sunday. in a car accident. Asriel is broken but physically okay. Today she texted me. ive been holding it together but today she texted me and I can’t stop crying now. I had negotated her reminding me about fisting events. and shes dead and she still reminded me.

fuck i’m sad.

this is worse than my parents dying. cause at least my parents dying made sense.

i think asriel finally realized how much the stormie stuff really hurt me.

i need to get over stormie. i miss him so much.

school starts next week. maybe thatll help.

two years ago today dad died.

i feel sick.

I really dont think anyone cares if I exist or not.

day number ??? 

i ate real food today.

thats my only accomplishment today .

guess what. i still miss stormie.

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6 i think 

today i’m uncomfortable.

I dont know why I exist.

I keep thinking about quitting

Im so sad

day 4/5 

yesterday was 2 years since mom died. wednesday will be 2 years since dad died.

yesterday I felt mostly numb.

i suck at food still.

i spent the day alone/with marcy.

Day 3 

I have plans with kate today.

i wish i could stop thinking about stormie.

food is really hard.

i dont like walking into hearing/seeing other peoples painful sex in places I was not expecting it. I dont have any issue with painful sex. ive enjoyed it myself. but i wasn’t in place to deal with it today.

i have some ideation today because I feel very fatigued.

tomorrow is 2 years since mom died. how does time keep moving when I feel so stuck.

I have to drive to loveland.

i miss stormie.

I keep looking through my tumblr from a million years ago and finding relevant content.

Day 2 

Yesterday I signed up for phlebotomy school. It will be from 11/1-11/16.

I woke up earlier today, around 7-730. Marcy didn’t sleep in the bed with me the whole night. Its still pretty new that she sleeps in the bed with me at all. Im not sure if cuddling benefits are actually being achieved but I do like knowing that she is close to me.

I really need a new phone. My phone is struggling to send and recieve messages.

I’ve been struggling to pin down things with Kate. It makes me squirmy. Normally with Kate I’m good at go with the flow. But also not knowing what the plan is with time to prepare for the plan can be hard.

I did experience some increased anxiety yesterday. Not really sure if it was from life, adderall, or what. I’ve been struggling food too. Which, you know, nothing new. Food has always been hard. Adderall always makes it harder.

I just need to make it through the next two weeks then ill having -something- to focus on for at least a bit.

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